Happy New Year Everyone!
2018 has officially arrived and for many of us that means it’s a fresh start.
Well, that’s how I see it anyway.
2017 was an important year for me and it may have been one for some of you as well. It was the year I discovered what I wanted for my life and how I wanted to achieve them. And it all began with me finally realizing it and self-reflecting on myself.
I NEEDED to give myself some self-love again and it took me till the end of August of 2017 to realize it with the help from a special friend. I wasn’t living my life for ME for quite a long time and I needed to look in the mirror and finally see that for myself.
After moving to Oregon I hit some bumpy roads that set me into a minor state of depression and a negative state of mind. I was in a very dark place mentally and this time I didn’t quite know how to get out of it.
I had an Etsy shop at the time and used it as a way to try to relieve that depression rather than as a creative escape. Basically meaning, I really didn’t love what I was doing I was just trying to make money hoping it would solve a lot of my problems.
Which is not the most positive mindset and I definitely was not going to achieve any real goals that way.
Luckily, this past summer I had the chance to visit my dad in beautiful Hawaii where ( as always) it gives me the opportunity to reflect on my life while also bringing me inspiration. Sometimes that is all we need to open up our eyes to see the bigger picture – a place to escape to for a little while.
After a few days of being there it hit me one early afternoon what I felt was the cause for all of my negativity. I was finally brought out of the darkness to see what was really going on.
It’s crazy how it’ll just hit you randomly but you also have to be open to it and not so quick to shut out the idea of all the possibilities. For me, it was the realization of how tense and stressed out I was all the time and not allowing myself to be happy.
Once we arrived back home I had the opportunity to let that negative vibe go.
To my surprise I felt a huge relief.
I stopped trying to look far into the future and decided to enjoy the moments that were in front of me. I had to stop constantly overthinking and putting myself down with negative thoughts because all that did was make me miserable.
There was a period (I think it was the large part of September) when I completely broke down and was frustrated with myself wondering why it took me so long to realize this.
I had finally hit my rock bottom.
Now, I had to figure out how to fix it. That began with making sure I never felt that darkness again.
I promised myself that day to make sure I do something that makes me happy everyday and at least once a day. That can range from dressing up just to go grocery shopping or dying your hair a certain style that you have been wanting to do for a while.
What I also didn’t realize after all this time was how unhappy I truly was. The worst part about it was I knew I was unhappy but I refuse to admit it because that meant it was going to get in the way of what I wanted.
I always was the one to tell people to do what makes them happy and to go live their dreams. But how can that be my motto when I haven’t really lived up to that myself.
I guess I thought I couldn’t be happy and also get what I wanted. I’ve learned that, that is NOT true at all. You CAN have both.
This is where the self- love comes in. This is something I feel strongly and passionately about and I think it’s not expressed enough to the world.
I don’t just mean exercising everyday or eating healthy meals all week. Not that those are not important because they certainly are. What I mean is something like taking one day out of the week to focus on you whether that be a spa day or trying out the new restaurant that you’ve been dying to go to. Pamper yourself and make sure you know that YOU are important.
We are always busy making sure that either other people around us is happy or that we don’t want to change the situation we are currently in because then we will lose out on everything. But sometimes that is exactly what needs to happen.
It’s okay if we outgrown our environment because that means we know that we deserve more but that also means we were strong enough to allow ourselves to see that we deserved more.
Now you just have to pursue that goal of yours that makes you genuinely happy and proud that you fought as hard as you did. I know you are strong enough to do so 🙂 .
For the whole month of January together we are going to learn to love ourselves again internally (not just physically). We are going to do this hand in hand so we can keep each other accountable!
Also, if you’re more of a visual person here is a video you can watch instead.
I want to bring out the confidence and the awesomeness that’s being held back inside of you. I know it’s there and I want you to be able to scream to the world that YOU can conquer the world no matter what obstacles may come your way.
Let this be your New Year’s resolution you will actually stick to and if this goes well I’ll make sure to write about this at least once a month so you know you are not alone. I feel this is something everyone needs no matter who you are.
I hope you will join me on this journey and feel your true inner happiness.
I love you all and I’ll see you soon.
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